He is jealous for me..

Is that a heart, you ask? Yes, yes it is. I just want to throw it out there how awesome my friends are. Seriously, I have the most incredible accountability and love that I definitely don't deserve. I don't know what I would do without them... It's amazing how God continues to show me His love all because I finally let Him in. It was a small decision but God broke down those built up walls and invaded my life.. what  a blessing that is!!

Breakaway this week was rough. I'm the first to admit that I haven't lived the life I should have. And the discussion of boundaries (whether sexual or relational) smacked me in the face, then picked me up, smacked me again, and then stepped on my toe. It's about time I own up to my mistakes, but I never really thought about how much I hurt God when I hurt myself. My self-destructive behavior is INCREDIBLY selfish. I don't just hurt me, I hurt everyone around me and I hurt my creator. In no way is that okay. Because intentional hurt to myself is intentional hurt to all those I just mentioned.

These past two weeks of breakaway have been incredible. I've learned a lot about love, and how it's used in a positive aspect and how it's used negatively. I learned I can still love with my whole heart.. but until my feet are firmly planted in the Word and in God's hands, I can't commit to any type of love. Loving God is loving others... It's what I want to do with my life. I've come to know setting boundaries pretty well, but only on the other side of the mistake. Now I know what I can and can't do.. so I follow that and make it known. I know as a Christian, I will fall. But the more I can avoid it, the better!

I'm in such a reminiscent mood today.. I love thinking about my past (good and bad) and seeing and feeling how different I am. It's amazing how a simple invitation to the One who created me can literally change my life and those around me... Who knows what He is doing in my life right now. But I DO know it is good :)

Thanks anyone?

LORD!!! I am on fire for You. You have rocked my world and broken me in a beautiful way. I can't begin to describe how thankful I am... but lucky for me, I don't have to. It's kinda nice that You're in my head all the time. Only then could you know the extent of my joy in You. Continue to guide my eyes to You. Keep me focused, on the right path, as I continue to make that effort. I still know I can't do it without You. Thank you for Your Spirit in me... I can feel You everywhere I go.

To my readers, continue loving. It's the only thing that matters in the end!!
Molly