Today was that for me. I wasn't in a hyper dancing mood like normal, I was in a quiet mood. On my drive to my first class I didn't listen to music. I didn't put my headphones in on the way to class. I simply drove, and walked, and listened to the world around me.
Feeling tranquil? I sure am.
All day I had this voice in my head that I needed to listen. Be quiet. Cut out all the noise and be. I did that, and it was wonderful!!
Breakaway yesterday was awesome. Not only did I get front row (again), but it was by far the best sermon I've ever heard. I struggle with love a whole lot. Not in the sense that I love and dont have it returned, but more that I want more than anything to love. I tried it on guys and decided to take that away and give it to God. It was my understanding I had to tiptoe around guys and people and not love too much for fear of causing drama... Ben spoke the words God needed me to hear. it isn't about me. Crazy concept, right? My passion for love isn't something to be pocketed until I'm married. My passion for people needs to be explored. The Christian community should overflow with the love I want to give. It isn't romantic, it isn't infatuation, it is genuine love for your brothers and sisters. I can do that, and I can do it well. God gave me the tools! I remember the point made where the love we give to each other means I'm 'invested, but not impressed'. aka I give all of my heart to my community, but I keep my head and needs with the Lord. That was the answer I've been looking for. The part of me that I put away for safe keeping has been brought back in a Godly way. He is guiding me on how to do it! Cooperation with God, what an awesome thing..
I'm falling asleep as I type this.. definitely will say more tomorrow!!
thanks?
God, You know what's on my heart. Continue to guard it and lead it towards You!
to my readers, vaya con dios.
Molly
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