what did I do to study for my last final? Watch Sleepless in Seattle..

2 Corinthians 9:7 (NCV) "Each one should give as you have decided in your heart to give. You should not be sad when you give, and you should not give because you feel forced to give. God loves the person who gives happily.'

Going through my earlier blogs, I read how much I love serving and how I learn to serve selflessly and serve with purpose. Reading this verse I am reminded of that! It's funny how when I was looking back on my blogs how different my vision is of not only service but everything I do. God has supplied this for me. God has loved me even when I thought my faith couldn't get any stronger (boy was I wrong)! I look at how much I've grown and I'm just in awe. I keep thinking that I can't learn any more and then I learn more!!

These past few weeks have been great. I've learned a lot about myself and about the people around me. I've dealt a lot with judgment and insecurities in who I am, and have found even more encouragement in the Lord. When I felt down about myself, I felt emotions and then was able to move on. God provided me the strength I needed to get by and continue life!! I've felt that more this week than ever.

Time to study for my last final... wish me luck!


Vaya con dios
Molly

D-2 formal + Theta Semiformal + Grandmother's successful surgery= awesome week

Yes I know, totes presh. I'm kinda crazy about this guy! Two dances with him just further proved how great he is... just because he put up with me, the worse and most uncoordinated dancer in the world. AKA not a dancer :) Thanks for a wonderful week Kyle!

SO, this semester has flown by. I mentioned in a former post feelings up numbness, and confusion... as if this past few weeks have been a blur. I've been thinking about this and what it means.. When I realized how not okay that is. God calls me to live each moment for Him, with purpose and intention behind it. So allowing blur is not okay... it just shows I'm not being His hands and feet.
Someone who does do this though, is my grandmother. She had shoulder replacement surgery today and as I walked by the room she was being prepped in I hear her blabbering away about being a teacher and where she's from and where her doctor is from... I walk up and ask if she had been drugged yet, judging by the amount of chatter. I was greeted with a gasp from my grandmother and a good laugh from the wildly attractive doctor Eli Whitney (He's like McSteamy and McDreamy combined!!!). Even when she was about to have surgery, she was there making others smile. I've realized how in that sense I am just like her. How my ability to charm and make others feel comfortable is a blessing and a curse, but makes life a little harder when it is misinterpreted. Either way, I love who I've been raised to be, because I feel purpose when I make others smile. Being at the hospital today I was reminded of how awesome that passion is!!! I made tons of new friends, many of which were attractive doctors, and made more people smile just by being friendly. Oh, and did I mention I made new friends who are police officers who gave me their office phone numbers so if I ever want to see a day on the job they would do it? I was more surprised about that than you are. And the only reason they offered was because they watched Kyle teach me to two step and I just walked over and started a conversation.

Sometimes today's society makes me sad. There is a reason I get along so well with older people, I was raised to do exactly that. People my age like it because my way of conversation is quite old fashioned. But mostly because being friendly in general is rare... Showing God in a smile is sometimes unheard of. When I tell someone I saw God in them, it's surprising. When I get to share God with someone, even I am surprised. God's love shouldn't be surprising... it should be radiated and common. We aren't supposed to be content with the way the world is. In poverty, AIDS, world hunger, depression, murder, suicide.. and in my case, how rare a smile is.

So, let's smile a little more guys :) and keep my grandmother's recovery in your prayers!!

Vaya con dios,
Molly

I'm grateful for everything :)

First thing I'd thank God for today is yogurt. This is my third time to eat it (it's been a weird eating day) and I've liked it more every time. Whoop for greek yogurt!!
Second, Theta and AMC's domination in songfest. It wasn't a little domination, it was awesome complete domination with style and good dance moves!! Way to go girls!
Third, my puppy. I saw her twice this week/weekend and got to snuggle and love on her. Despite people's annoyance by her, I love her with all my heart when she's hyper and when she's not. God blessed me with this bundle of joy :)

 Lastly, I'm grateful for Kyle Powell. I want to share what he did for me Thursday night. Prepare to be amazed.
So first, I go to pick him up from campus because he wanted to 'take me somewhere' but wouldn't tell me where. Next thing I know I'm being blindfolded and he is driving... He makes a stop somewhere, I actually don't cheat (shocker, especially in a situation where I don't have control and I am whining the whole time) and I make it to the last stop alive. He walks me out of the car and into some sort of field, takes off the blindfold and we are at Christmas in the Park.

Cutest thing ever? I think yes. Turns out the stop we made was him getting me hot chocolate.. and we proceeded to walk around and admire the lights and smile a whole bunch.. oh and take a few pictures along the way. That's the perfect date, right? Oh no, there's more. He then took me stargazing and we saw a shooting star. Double perfect, once impossible.. Now possible.
Now, I don't say I'm thankful for Kyle because of our date. I'm not grateful for what he does for me. I'm grateful for who he is... He is an amazing man of God who loves so deeply and shows that love to anyone he meets. He encourages me, betters me, and radiates God's love to me. I'm grateful for him because of how he allows God to use him, and how strong he is and trusting he is in God's work in his life. I truly believe if everyone was a little bit more like Kyle, the world would be a better place. So, thank you Kyle for a wonderful week/weekend. You make my heart glow and are an incredible friend to me. I couldn't ask for a better guy to hang out with :)

Well, seeing as it is now 2:15 I guess I should head to bed to make it to church in the morning. My thanks has been listed above :)

To my audience, vaya con dios!!
Molly

You should let me love you, let me be the one to, give you everything you want and need...

First, I want everyone to see how the beaters made the cookie dough form a heart. God loves my cooking, too :)
So I've felt pretty numb recently. That's why my blog posts have been short or not at all. Not as if I'm in a bad place, not as if I'm super busy... But everything has slowed down and these last few weeks are quite the blur. I've had a regathering of my thoughts and have begun productivity again, but I'm still slightly confused as to what I've done in the past few weeks.
I've loved how despite my numbness and boredom, God has been first on my mind. He has popped up in my mind more than anything else, and I know that despite my boredom and lack of productivity, I'm precious in His sight. What an awesome thing to KNOW for sure!!

The other day while studying with Kyle, I ran into (or she ran into me actually) Courtney Bailey. Y'all, this girl is awesome. She was in my impact and dominated a cheer awarding us the 'spirit stick' which we turned yellow :) This girl is awesome. Despite circumstantial difficulties and life coming down hard, she had a beautiful smile on her face and was geninuenly concerned as to how I'm doing. And, she admitted to facebook stalking, which makes her awesome in my book.
Talking to her got me thinking. About how despite the fact that at impact I didn't know Jesus as well as I do now, I was still able to love on Courtney and everyone in my camp in the way He meant me to. God has been guiding me even when I didn't know Him. He pursued me when I wasn't pursued. Think about it... Say you try to be friends with me. I make it clear I don't want your friendship in a polite nice way. You continue trying, knowing I need love from a friend. I tell you to your face I don't want it. You continue trying, despite my disrespectful comments and spreading rumors about you. I eventually tell you I don't like you at all, and I don't want to talk with you. You cry and are hurt, but you continue pursuing me. Eventually I yell at you and scream at you to back off... say things about you and to you that cut to the core. You'd give up eventually, right? There's only so much hurt and lies you can take. Now picture this is someone that isn't just a friend.. it's your daughter. I did exactly what I did in that situation to God. I ignored Him, avoided Him, back talked to Him, yelled at Him, berated Him, lied to Him, and eventually told others I hated Him by saying I didn't believe in Him. How much I must have hurt Him... How hard He must have cried... He gave His live for me and I intentionally hurt my God!!!!

Now i'm not going through this thought process to make myself (or you) feel bad, but because I need reminding of the sacrifice of Jesus and the way He suffered, as well as continues to suffer. I said those thigns to Him and He still saved me. There are people everywhere who are still in the state I was. And why aren't we being His hands and feet? I am saved because people took up that role. Continued to love me despite me avoiding and ignoring... They loved me because He loves me. They hurt while He hurt. We are connected to our Lord and we need to be doing His work as He demands.

Phew! Another rant! My point is that I want to be His hands and feet, not only because my Lord did it for me!!!

Vaya con dios :)
Molly

Think Theta Think Yell Leader

In the past God spoke to our ancestors through the prophets at many times and in various ways, but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom also he made the universe.” - Hebrews 1:1-2

Boom. Roasted.
That verse is one that definitely hit home today... One thing I've always thought about (but not struggled with) is how prevalent God is in the Old Testament and how He literally says to them "Hey you, you're being stupid and I'm tired of it. Quit it now or I'll wash you away". Which is not only super baller because God is awesome like that, but because of how simple it was to contact God and have Him as a consistent source of love and

GRACE GUTHRIE. GRACE GUTHRIE. GRACE GUTHRIE.
This girl makes my heart happy. Seriously, not just a little. A lot. She is one of the coolest people I know and one of the most loving people I know. I'd do anything for her- I hope you know that Grace!! I heart you a whole freakin' lot.

REAGAN SINCLAIR. REAGAN SINCLAIR. REAGAN SINCLAIR.
I can't wait to room with this girl... so full of joy and love for everyone she meets. I can say with full confidence that this girl is one of the most genuine girls I've ever met. I'm so luckyyyy!

Aaaaaanyway, back to the original topic: Jesus.
So the cool thing about looking at the Old Testament and how prevalent God was in that time, I thought about why that didn't strike a jealousy chord in my heart. But when you think about it, I experience not only a life where God is completely and totally prevalent, but I have an intimate and special relationship with Him. Take that, Old Testament people. HA HA. But I seldom think about the reality of having a relationship with my creator. Me, a sinner, undeserving, unworthy, and yet chosen to have that kind of relationship. How cool that really is!! Now, part two of this is how awesome it is that I have the intimate relationship, and it comes with having God completely radiate in my heart and take over everything I do and transform it. I am so amazed at the fact that God helped me and loved me and made it known. He invaded my life and changed me. I did nothing to change who I am or what I do. I simply asked Him to move me... and He did. I know God exists because of who I am. I know God exists because of who He is. and how He is. and how He loves.

Okay, study time. More later! Vaya con Dios!!

Molly