I had the privelidge of interviewing with two awesome camps this week. Pinecove and Sky Ranch. Do I plan to work at a camp this summer?? I have NO idea. I don't know why God led me to apply.... Maybe it was because He really wants me to work at a camp. Maybe it's because He wanted me to realize that I have a lot of work to do in the bible aspect. Either way, I'm so trusting Him that He will lead me in the right direction.
Currently I'm in Sociology, and we are watching a movie called 'killing us softly 3'. It's about women, body image, and lives based on the typical stereotype. This is something I always struggle with.. I am consistenly surrounded by the idea of the perfect body and have never been fully content with my own. I can honestly say I have only recently been okay with how I look just only due to the fact I have realized where true beauty lies... Not in this world.
I've been thinking a lot about my husband recently. What I want to say to him when I describe my past... what I want to do for him and how I want to love him. When it comes down to it, he's going to love me no matter what I look like!! So why am I so worried? On the other hand, there's that whole God thing. HE has loved me since I was a gross slimy chubby mess. Did I care how I looked then? no.. I believe as a baby you are still so in tune with God and close to the aspect of unconditional love. So why can't I return to that idea after I acquire knowledge, logic, and everything else that SHOULD influence my closeness to God and if anything bring me closer?? He loves me unconditionally. He wants my heart. He is making a man for me that will love every part of me and not just how I look or not just my personality... Why worry?
Sorry about that rant.. I don't know where that came from. The video I guess. I've had such a great reminder this week about my past in giving my testimony twice to complete strangers. I was reminded of how lucky I am to be me and how short this live on earth is.. how all the things I continue to worry about will have absolutely no worth when I go spend eternity with my savior!!
Thanks anyone?
God... You are so amazing. I have never felt so sure of anything in my life until I finally found You. Thank you for continuing to boost me up even when my head gets in the way!!!
vaya con dios,
Molly
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