dang... it's been too long

I know i've slacked... that's a given.. but oh em gee these last 3 months have been outrageous
i'm sitting here trying to think of how to even start explaining everything that's happened this last bit of time. God broke me and my busy-ness. I am so sure of God's work... even terrible grades don't get me down. My spring semester grades were absolutely awful. Worst grades I've ever gotten, and the majority all at once... It was a shock, it was an emotional rollercoaster, I dealt with shame, embarrassment... I was almost not allowed to do impact and have to deal with academic probation. Everyone asks me the same thing: What happened?? it's quite simple. I pursued people and was intentional. In short I hung out with people too much. But it's not always hanging out with best friends- it was pursuing people to attempt to better their lives and share the Good News... and I did too much of it. I felt overwhelmed ALL THE TIME and didn't have my grades fall down on me until finals. So basically, I spent too little time on school to spend more time trying to tell people about Jesus. I've learned the hard way there has to be a balance... God wants me to do well in school.

OK
rant time.
I'm watching American Idol with my dad and that pussy cat girl is singing some song about her body.. and her dancing is super sexual, and her outfit is barely covering anything. THIS IS NOT OK. it breaks my heart that her worth is placed in what she looks like. Given, it's possible that sex drugs and money are the only things that 'sell'.. but take a look at all of the christian singers that are said to have 'made it' but are doing it for God. I don't know. It's so frustrating to see people that choose those things when there is a God that is so much more. I recently read a book called 'Heaven is for Real'. Please read it. God offers so much more. The money these people make and the cars these people have won't last through heaven's gates... There is something so much better!!!

I think i need to cool off.

till next time.