Bieber Fever???

ALRIGHT. enough said :) I did go to the premeir last night, and I did drool when Usher and JB performed together.. What's funny is how during the movie I couldn't stop thinking about God. Devin O'Donnell said the thing that I was thinking- is JB an idol?

During the movie it showed girls crying and people shelling out tons of money to see this kid who has obviously been  blessed with tons of talent. If you disagree, feel free to see the movie and then we can have a chat.. But what makes this kid so incredible? What makes people worship the tissue in his neck? What makes someone who can sing more famous than someone who can run well?

I read a book called Crime and Punishment in high school that really put this subject on my heart. What makes technology technology? What makes laziness mean intelligence? What makes the ability to do something faster smarter? Because I'm pretty sure things built before the ability to use technology were sturdier, lasted longer, and were more efficient. So why is settling better?

ANYWAY- I adore JB. Don't get me wrong!!! But when I was watching him I saw God more than I saw a cute little 16 year old. God gave him a talent that radiated since he was a baby!!! how cool is that :) Recently I've had a heart for the struggle between living comfortably, being successful, and doing too much. I had a wonderful devotional where it basically said doing TONS of service-oriented projects doesn't make you any more Christian than doing TONS of regular projects. As in if I am the chairman and president and vice president of 60 different organizations yeah I may help tons of different efforts but will I offer my full heart to it? Will I look forward to every meeting and completely offer everything I have because I want to fully pursue this? Or will my ability to say 'no' to something not only teach the person asking me to do the position, myself, and the person that gets the position something? I had an awesome conversation with my frooms Reagan Sinclair about this, and how if you are pursuing a checklist of Jesus-activities and are not allowing Him to lead you where He wants you and where you will be most successful, you will fail and you will fail the organization or people you are pouring half of your heart into. There are people like me, who applied for service chair of Theta, 5k coordinater, VPA, Sky Ranch employee, PineCove employee, historian, and tons more and didn't get a single one. I am still joyful! God reminded me that He will lead me where I need to be. Now had I pursued those more and somehow convinced people to allow me in a certain position I may have gotten the position but I am aware that I wouldn't have been good at them. The topic of getting positions has dominated my Sophomore year but I've finally gotten to understand the difference between desire for a position and being lead to a position. It isn't always easy, but it is a heck of a lot easier when you finally understand those concepts!!

This weekend I went camping with Jenna, Dave, Kyle and Bella. I didn't notice this until the end of the trip, but the whole time Kyle had been serving all of us without request, and without expectations. I found myself getting frustrated when he was playing guitar or doing something that he wanted to do because I got used to his selfless service. I stood up at one point to get something and was thinking about how frustrated I was and the Lord's voice popped into my head saying, 'he has selflessly served this entire trip and taken care of the fire the whole entire time. Who's to say that he can't sit down for a minute and enjoy what he's doing?'. God gave me a huge slap in the face and reminded me of how lucky I am to have such a wonderful guy as a boyfriend :) Happy valentines day baby!!

On the other hand, Dave and Jenna, I can honestly say I have never had so much fun with a couple as I did with y'all. Y'alls attitudes, humor, and encouragement in EVERYTHING just radiated God's love and I can't tell you enough how grateful I am to have y'all as friends and even more to have y'all as camping buddies. Jenna- you have been such a blessing to me! You have always been honest with me, open, and awesome at communicating with me and everyone. I can't thank you enough for caring so much for me no matter how dumb my freak outs are. I have never had a friend like you and I'm so grateful for you!!!!!!!!!!

To Jbieb- your voice has changed and it sounds WONDERFUL!!!!! And you look adorable. Great job at the grammy's!

To my audience,

Vaya con dios